The Road to Wellness

I won't deny that I have problems. I've had panic attacks and days where I just have no motivation for anything. I just lay in bed wondering why life sucks so much. Usually something triggers these depression episodes. Most recently it's because I'm stressed about money and my car isn't working the way it should. I reached a breaking point.
After spending most of Sunday (yesterday) crying, feeling sorry for myself, laying in bed and ignoring the housework that needed to be done and my child who just wanted to play with his mommy and a husband who has no idea how to make me feel better.
Thankfully I had an appointment today with my midwife. I told her about my weekend as she was already aware that I occasionally suffer from depression/anxiety. Starting tomorrow I start taking Zoloft. I'm terrified that I now require medication but I'm even more terrified of the darkness that settles in. I hate feeling so low. So I'm relieved that I'm getting help. In a couple weeks I will be a more brighter person.  I'm on the right road to a better me.